another title being titled

haha. being random =)
by the way, i went hometown for cheng beng and now my grandparents are now watching tv downstairs. just sneaked out for a rest. SO i am here. =)
i just realized. now erm probably recently love fever is back again. i dunno why. just feeling so and many people crushing on one another. hah. so funny.LOL

so what i have been expected were all the results were being distributed to all of us in 4s4. unfortunately, just add maths, leaving moral and english papers not yet being delivered.
yeah, i am quite satisfied with my add maths paper as many of my friends did quite bad? erm, the gap is too big until there's 70 or 80 percent difference among the highest and the lowest. so ya. =)

and one thing to speak out is that I HAVE FINALLY FINISHED MORAL AND CHEMISTRY PROJECT! wohooo, what a miracle man! i just cant believe that i had actually finished them all in just one day. i think just half a day la. haha. panda eyes i have, due to yesterdays. =) slept around 3 hours just to complete all.

AND one more thing to announce is that i need to do housechores for another two weeks cause my KAKAK has just gone to her hometown. so yeah, i am a houseman, but i dont think i have the passion or urge to carry it on. haha, may be washing clothes and simple stuff i will do. SISTERS do the rest. ;)

finished my oral today. yeah, quite satisfied as i blurted everything and it was sort of impromtu. =)
ORAL ! BYE! =D

btw, readers, can introduce any nice songs being put up for blog's song?
thank you!

ohya, tanner skin.
by,
chong

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unsatisfied? dissapointment.

as what i have mentioned yesterday, i am nervous and at the same time
curious about my coming result. as you all know, i always aim higher for my academics.
*may be this is just a criteria that i can compare with?

BUT
when i reach a different stage in my life
after PMR
i found out that my perception was wrong.
totally wrong. =(
i just to overestimate myself and always think in the sense
that i can always maintain .

the results for tits and bits have shown all.
alll...
just two results that i hv just received,
i barely shout, emo or do anything.
not because i will shout for joy or
any positive expressions.

i was trashed.
in a horrible and horrendous way that i couldnt believe that
i had actually sat for this exam. everything came out so wrong.
and i couldnt accept it.
just cant.

may be it's just the starting point of form 4 life,
but i dont take this as an excuse.
i will.

i promise myself that i will work out my best for the coming exam.
i have flunked.
ALMOST EVERYTHING


let's see how it goes for the rest of my results.

i will take this time as my experience in my first ever form four life and soar it on . take my words. i will do better next time.

may be the cold weather makes me feel so sad and moody when i received my results.

finally, i think i have got over it. after spamming my feelings on my keyboard through blogging.
i am tired. tired of competing with others.

BUT, i am satisfied with myself for now although my goal was not kicked in a right position.

i have learned how to be optimistic and life is not always fair and square for all of us.

i think that's all for today. i will pray hard for the oncoming ones. wish me good luck =)

by,
chong

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a new turning point

leftovers



i believe
something that would have never happened.
trust me.
find a solution.
then that's it.

today, i really had a good day, although it's probably another study date for me. BUT who cares?at least i did enjoy and felt so pleasure as i haven't been like that since long time ago.
may be this was misunderstandings?

or because i wore red underwear that really brought me good luck in everything i do.
it's just so amazing when you actually walk into school, how people treated you and you treated them the same way!

i dont know why suddenly i felt so. but please, it's a fact. it's really true enough that sometimes TOLERATE　with each other really helps a lot.

i just wanted to share with you guys that DONT look into things too thoroughly or important though because this doesnt make any difference than locking in your room and blaming yourself and others. just refresh your mind, act like nothing have just happened, change the way you treat and you wanna feedbacks from the others. THEN, you can actually feel the warmth and of course, the positive way you wanted from the others.

may be you guys have already understood but just as a reminder, hereby i would like everyone to be clear what you guys are doing and what you guys suppose to be in different situations.

YOU WILL GAIN MORE than you have expected.

afterall, the feelings that you have been waiting ARE just so SYIOK!

okay, i need to study.

i HOPE this is the last time i face this situation. I HAD ENOUGH although this is considered the first time in my life ever to actually dwelling in different kind of stupid situations.

I WILL, I MUST and I BELIEVE I CAN!

same to you guys too! good luck =)

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vow in my heart - i can do it

tomorrow i am going to have my oral presentation.
as usual, i will memorize any articles.
but the main thing for now is WHICH ARTICLES should i pick?
is it last year's?
which i had already used it for my oral presentation for nearly 3 years?
i doubt it.

MAY BE due to the precious time that i am actually running out now,
i think i will use the same article.
FYI,
it's about contact lenses.

i will flip through and i think you guys should know right?

TOMORROW, i hope a better week for me although study date is going on and i am learning how to face you guys in 4s4. i hope my changes will actually work and bondage with you guys is a must because i will be facing you guys for two years.

tolerance. this is what a unity should be.

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Way up high

i have mixed feelings.
Is it better to distant someone else that is important attached in your heart?
i hope this will help to keep oneself be organized in performing things well?

i hope so.
i tried and i am going to try and try until i work this solution our rather than this method.
i i i have no idea how.
just soar myself for a better day but not staying beyond the line with my mind and soul slacking.
need to buck up homework, societies and so on to keep my schedule tight.

let's wave our hands high up, sing a song and everything fades.
please, i have an option to choose, whether let this feelings going on or concentrate in something else to distract my mind and get this feeling off.

p/s i know that it's a tuft year for me to sail on and i am in a win-win situation.

by,
chong

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A single heart turns grey

boredom kills a lot. since the day i prayed for this week to come, i already not in the mood of studying.
Although i know that this year wont be a good year due to the economy and also the preparation that awaits this new year,2009. And yes, i wasn't enjoying any single day since the school started. I was once playing firecrackers, collecting numerous ang paus, enjoy playing and teasing with small little kids. But, in fact this year i wasn't into the mood. i dont know why. Besides enjoying and sleeping continuously, i rather go back home to kl and COME here blogging.

MOO? a moo year that didnt make me feel any better. so saddening. =/
sometimes i even wonder why my life is just lke that? no changes but sometimes it got worsen. Even this year, i need something, just something to refresh my mind and get me go further to reach the next station. I can't stone at home facing the same stuff and doing the same routine what i am doing now and may be the following months i guess.

And now, i am here at home for two days already. When i flipped through my accumulated homework, it kills a lot. I dont have the mood to carry it on. I truly know that this wouldnt stop. Life's terrific, busy and hectic. I need some space to get use to it but please don't get affected by me. I can't keep it in my heart and so here it is.

I AM NOT EMO *again just wanted to tell you guys my feelings throughout this 7 days new year. i hope you guys did enjoy this new year. HAIH, another week starts and i know that it isnt a better day to soar on.

HOME HOME HOME. home sweet home? i dont think so. =(

i vow in my heart that i will I WILL lead a better life ever after.

Sometimes, i am not sure where am i , but at the very least i always know where are you and somehow trying to catch up with you. I dont know how's the future could it be, but now i realised that it is really hard to go along with you and whether should i BE WITH YOU.

Thank you for being my listener. =)

by,
chong.

p/s: pictures during CNY will be uploaded. HOPE so.

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Spongebob Thrower

Screw you. I HATE THIS FEELING! of always being the No.2 in the heart of someone you really love.
SCREW me, for still having faith in believing the person you love that he/she will then again think back and appreciate,instead of using/throwing things at me. Leaving me wondering what I've done wrong.

Its bad enough that i'm already having a horrible week. Now this? I'm not being pensive but I just can't help it.


=<
Lynn

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IM NO EMO

With soaring thigh muscles and unimaginable pain at sum unimaginable area, i sit here blogging. and then suddenly came a text message from a close friend of mine. He said that he doesnt deserve the care i've given him. And that he's grateful. And something just clicked through my mind. Why does humanity covers up whats not to deserve? If there wasn't anything to deserve, then why do we exist giving? Although its not that simple, but each of us soar differently. But no matter how, how everyone ends up, it may be a question. But i know that we all deserve something in the end.

People get emotionally attached to each other. Some thinks that this kind of bond won't last, knowing they will lose something. but why do people still do so? HAS ANYONE WONDERED ABT THIS? Maybe they decided to stay at that point of time. and why do people even bother giving advice to people knowing that it doesn't apply to the people who asked. I know a few people who serves/helps people and not to themselves. They may think they dn't deserve anything. To me, they have no idea they have somehting so special inside. Something so pure, so passionate, something other ppl will never have. Even if i cry, i do it so for others.

Oh! And i miss 3A1 terribly. Where there's Ooi Shu Lin, Ang Hui Li, Khor Zhong Wei, Dylan Wong, Fong Kah Jo, Wong Vooi Keat, Lim Chee Jack,and even Chong Jinhang ==.
And those stupid five people whom i love so much.

I dnt even have to time to think. So many feelings inside, i don't even know how to put words into this. Simple yet so knowingly painful. And these feelings are not about myself lah. ==. I didnt know people with fever have so much capabilities to pen down thoughts!

Blah i dnt even think anyone gets this. But to that friend of mine, if you're reading this, i want u know that those words in that card were worth my soul to write.



Love,
Chen Lynn

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