I love you T.T

People always leave. That's what they say.

But never was I to expect Michael Joseph Jackson's departure @ thursday @ 5a.m. Neither did everyone else in this world.

I had a dream. And that dream was I to meet MJ at the age of 37. I was suppose to shake hands with him, stare at his face hard, and to request for an autograph. He was suppose to plant a kiss on my die hard fanatic face. However, I guess I have no choice but to...

Commit suicide at the age 37, just so to achieve The Dream.

I wasn't exactly a big fan of him since young. Just the occasional come across of his classics at a very young age. Never bothered to figure who was the genius behind the songs and all.

Until I was somehow introduced to OH HAIL MICHAEL JACKSON last year. I even bought his original album. NG CHEN LYNN DOESN'T SIMPLY BUY ORIGINAL ALBUMS OF ARTISTES ONE OKAY. And then. Something magical happened.

I've fallen in love, and that was about it.

I became a fan. An innocent fan who had never care about his creepy social/personal life.

YOU KNOW HOW I FOUND OUT ABOUT HIS DEATH AH. I tell you.

I was on the way to school, half asleep in the car. With Rajoo driving me to school @ app 7a.m????

SUDDENLY Rajoo's cellphone started to ring. It turned out to be one of his favourite Indian tunes. It was my Mummy. My mummy practically shouted at me at the call. I was particularly at a state of irritation when she talked to me. SORRY LAH. My EYES was gonna form a LINE YOU KNOW.

She announced,

'' CHEN LYNN YOU KNOW, MICHAEL JACKSON JUST PASSED AWAY!!!!!!!''

She sounded even more freaked out than me weih ==.

Back to the point.

I am extremely at awe. I am speechless at what happened. I actually feel sorry for MJ. I always believed he suffered more than any person in this world. And Maybe this was his time to go. God's calling or whatever. We had always expect too much from him.

But have we ever wandered from his perspective?

He has undergone so many torturing experiences, from his childhood to the tons of financial/emotional/physical debts, to thousands of people living on the planet.

Of course. he had given so much to the world. There appeared his genius music. Where he soared to the top with his genius dancing and his genius fashion style. He is, was or whatever, a genius.

Dammit, he even made the Fedora look hot. Even Ne Yo imitates him in his own music videos!

REACTIONS FROM THE PEOPLE I KNOW.

I know that Shu Lin cried her eyes out watching MJ's videos.

I know that Yu Li tried to act sober just to send condolences to the death of MJ.

I know that Carmen made the whole MJ-passed-away incident big. By announcing the news to the world loud and clear. ==.

I know that Boon Keat said Poor MJ instead of RIP MJ.

I know that Dylan mentioned that it was up to him to become the next MJ ==. ==.

He has this superhothothot Music Video. One that is called You Rock My World. One that may be unfamiliar to people. One that was always my favourite. One that will make you(maybe its only me) feel damn hot.

'' In a world filled with hate, we must still dare to hope. In a world filled with anger, we must still dare to comfort. In a world filled with despair, we must still dare to dream. In a world filled with distrust, we must still dare to believe.''

-Michael Jackson

Even if the whole world thinks that you have betrayed your own identity as a black, or you have been labeled some androgynous mutant by French peopl, or maybe a sick bastard whose got nothing better to do than molesting young boys, Chen Lynn will always love you. Period.