unsatisfied? dissapointment.

as what i have mentioned yesterday, i am nervous and at the same time
curious about my coming result. as you all know, i always aim higher for my academics.
*may be this is just a criteria that i can compare with?

BUT
when i reach a different stage in my life
after PMR
i found out that my perception was wrong.
totally wrong. =(
i just to overestimate myself and always think in the sense
that i can always maintain .

the results for tits and bits have shown all.
alll...
just two results that i hv just received,
i barely shout, emo or do anything.
not because i will shout for joy or
any positive expressions.

i was trashed.
in a horrible and horrendous way that i couldnt believe that
i had actually sat for this exam. everything came out so wrong.
and i couldnt accept it.
just cant.

may be it's just the starting point of form 4 life,
but i dont take this as an excuse.
i will.

i promise myself that i will work out my best for the coming exam.
i have flunked.
ALMOST EVERYTHING


let's see how it goes for the rest of my results.

i will take this time as my experience in my first ever form four life and soar it on . take my words. i will do better next time.

may be the cold weather makes me feel so sad and moody when i received my results.

finally, i think i have got over it. after spamming my feelings on my keyboard through blogging.
i am tired. tired of competing with others.

BUT, i am satisfied with myself for now although my goal was not kicked in a right position.

i have learned how to be optimistic and life is not always fair and square for all of us.

i think that's all for today. i will pray hard for the oncoming ones. wish me good luck =)

by,
chong